A wonderful article from Tim Kastelle: “Ten Great Women to Write About for Ada Lovelace Day” has gotten me started on reminiscences.

I first met Ada Lovelace sometime in the ’70′s. I was in my early 20′s and had begun a frantic scramble to escape the unwelcome recognition that I was not who I was supposed to be. I was growing older and older– impossibly old. I had passed 21 and was hurtling toward 25. The list of the things I had not done was growing longer and longer — and still I had accomplished nothing. I had gone through one major after another — Political Science, Sociology, Anthropology, Russian, History– without being able to settle on any. I had married, but my husband was not yet ready to agree to the eternal fall-back career for a woman– having children. At the time I met Ada I had embarked on the most improbable of my academic attempts: I was enrolled in Electrical Engineering at Northwestern University.

I came to both the university and the subject in a roundabout way. I had met my husband when I was 17 while was living with a group of older friends- students at Michigan State in East Lansing, Michigan. He was just finishing his Bachelor’s in Physics at the University of Michigan in Ann Arbor. When he was admitted to grad school at the University of Illinois in Champaign-Urbana, I applied at Illinois Wesleyan, about an hour’s drive, in Bloomington. The following year we both applied to the Chicago Circle Branch of the University of Illinois so that we could finally be together in the same city.

In Champaign my husband had begun to work on a sort of early precursor of the internet: the Plato project. It arrived at the Chicago Campus at the same time we did. Plato was a dream wrapped up in an orange plasma bow for someone like me: it was filled to the gills with courses on every possible subject, all presented in fascinating ways. There was an electronic fruit fly laboratory where you could ‘breed’ flies with various characteristics and see the results in the offspring. There was a pattern recognition program where you could train yourself to recognize dot-matrix moths on electronic ‘trees’. There was a world population map where you could simulate various kinds of population changes- from an increase in the birthrate to a catastrophic plague- and see how quickly populations in various places would bounce back. There was a German language learning program which gradually substituted German words into a well-known English language story, testing you on vocabulary at each iteration until imperceptibly you found yourself reading the text entirely in German. And, of course, there were games. One in which you played the commander of a space ship showed you a display panel and gave you a crude look out into a galaxy of stars. And I can remember once pulling an all-nighter– not cramming for an exam but wandering through the electronic mazes of a dungeons and dragons game.

My husband soon found that he was having trouble focusing on physics with such a fascinating new toy to do with as he willed. Gradually the heretical thought began to form that he might not get a Ph.D. after all. For him it was a painful transition: the relinquishing of a long-standing focus. For me, on the other hand, shedding my Russian literature skin and diving into computers was as natural as breathing. The pain came later, as I realized that once again I had disappointed, reinforcing my parents’ growing skepticism about my ability to stick to anything for long enough to experience any success. I was still young enough, however, that, just as each time before, I managed to convince myself that this was it. I had finally found my subject. This time it would be different.

I had taken a Fortran course my first quarter at UICC running punch cards through the machine and going back into the computer room with its cubby holes for the printouts. Now I learned Tutor, the language developed for Plato, and started to write programs. But while my husband burrowed ever deeper into his new subject, becoming expert in the Unix systems being developed to run the project, I was soon restless again. The idea of programming attracted me. The finished applications enchanted me. But the actual work of writing and debugging programs drove me batty. I still wanted to do something connected with computers though. Moving from software to hardware seemed like a logical transition at the time.

In retrospect I can hardly imagine a subject less suited to me. And it was exactly that, I think, that was the source of its true attraction. I began to work on a voluntary basis in the Plato lab, making simple repairs involving nothing more than replacing parts one after another, until the defective piece was found by trial and error. To my hurt surprise this was not enough to land me a paying job. I realized that I needed real credentials and my smarting ego decided that I would get a degree that no one could question- in electrical engineering.

There was just one problem with this plan: I had no background in math and science whatsoever and in my teenage years had developed a formidable math block to boot. For once I found myself stubborn, however. I located some self-paced basic math books and managed to fill some of the gaping holes in my math background. Then I was lucky enough to get an excellent Trigonometry teacher as my first professor. From there I moved on to Calculus courses. It was about then that I heard that Northwestern was trying to increase enrollment of women in its engineering courses and was offering a special enrollment program. I wrote an essay about overcoming my math block and was admitted, ironically, on the strength of my writing ability.

Throughout this time we were becoming more and more immersed in this growing new world of computers, my husband directly, I more peripherally. Though I was soon struggling with physics and engineering classes I found time to dip into Donald Knuth’s then two-volume work, The Art of Computer Programming. And it was there that I first met Ada. It was a single quote at the start of a chapter. I can neither remember nor locate that quote, but in essence she made the extraordinary leap of intuition that a machine that didn’t even exist except on paper- Babbage’s Analytical Engine- could as easily use symbols as numbers, allowing machine instructions to be written as words. When Knuth came to Chicago to deliver a lecture I stopped him afterward and asked if he knew where I could find more information on her. He didn’t.

I was fascinated, but had hit a brick wall. There were no biographies of Ada Lovelace and I had no other sources to turn to for information. I stopped looking but never forgot her.

After several years struggle I admitted I was not cut out to be an engineer and dropped out of school again. Another skin shed, another proof added to the pudding of disappointment. Then we moved to Los Angeles, where my husband had gotten a job at the Rand Corporation.

As I passed the quarter century mark it began to dawn on me that perhaps I had been seeing things the wrong way around. Perhaps it wasn’t so much a problem of not being who I was supposed to be – but of not being who I was supposed to be. I began to write again, something I had done since early childhood but had abandoned as impractical for an ‘adult’. Feeling a desperate need to prove myself a ‘real’ writer I focused on the area I thought most likely to get me published- writing one of the then highly popular ‘Regency Romances’. It was a genre I knew well. I was a fanatic reader of historical novels of all sorts, but especially those set in the Regency period of England.

As I was working on the novel, something else was happening: gradually, interest was developing in Ada Lovelace. The Department of Defense named a programming language after her. A biography about her appeared. Suddenly there was information on her life available, but it seemed rather unsatisfactory. The biography of her was written by a Byron scholar and nothing that had come out thus far seemed to indicate any real appreciation for her accomplishments. I wondered if it was too late for me to write about her- and if I did whether my own math background would be sufficient for me to follow what she’d done.

I finished the novel and began to shop it around to agents. One, who was transitioning from being a film script agent to novels, was enthusiastic about my idea for a novel on Ada Lovelace. Throw in some sex, he said. Was she having an affair with Babbage? And there was always the psychological angle. A woman mathematician- dying of uterine cancer- clearly she was suppressing her own femininity. He thought he could get me an advance of $50,000– if I would follow his advice. I thanked him and found another agent.

The manuscript never was published. All I – and my hard-working agent- had to show for it was a number of nice notes thanking me for my submission but informing me that they were dropping their line of Regency Romances.

Writing the novel had been a long, hard slog, but somewhere towards the end of it a story of a completely different sort began to take form. I found myself waking in the middle of the night with the voices of the two protagonists in my head. It felt utterly different than all my previous writing. It felt, almost, as if they were somehow writing my life instead of I theirs. Perhaps they were. Certainly my path had veered radically away from anything I had previously planned or thought of. In researching the play, or script– I was not sure what it was- I had come across the work of Tom Stoppard which, in turn, led me into the world of Czech literature and film. I began working for the release of writers and artists imprisoned by the Communist regime, in particular an obscure playwright by the name of Vaclav Havel. Coincidence and serendipity piled on one another. By 1982 I had left my husband and started into uncharted territory.

As radically as my life has veered away from that time, taking me into a new culture, a new language, a new marriage, I still think of Ada Lovelace often. Beneath the skin of time and circumstances I think- I feel- that we were fighting the same, puzzled fight, trying to discover how to fit an ‘I’ into the ‘supposed to be’.

It is hard to explain Twitter. It’s also hard to ‘get’ Twitter. To say it is a mini-blogging platform that lets you post a brief sentence or two on your own page– and also read the short posts of those you choose to follow, does nothing to explain its appeal. On the one hand the platform is simple: you can write anything — as long as it’s under 140 characters. On the other hand, it can be confusing– and unlike other social media, like Facebook or Stumbleupon, it is not easy for some kind soul to take you by the hand and show you the ropes. In Twitter, you have to ‘follow’ someone before you will even see what they write– and they will not see your pleas for help unless they ‘follow’ you back. Furthermore, 140 characters is far too limited to tell you all you need to know.

So here is a short guide to the Twitter basics:

First, of course, sign up for Twitter at Twitter.com. The URL for your Twitter page will be www.twitter.com/yourprofilename. Now set up your profile. Confusingly, you can’t do that by clicking on ‘profile’ at the top of the page: that just shows you what your Twitter page looks like to other people. No, instead, click on ‘settings’. Under the ‘account’ tab say something about yourself, your work, or your interests. (Something short, of course– this is Twitter!) Under the ‘picture’ tab, upload a picture of yourself or a graphic. Under ‘device’ you can put in your cell phone number and send in your updates by text message. Once you have this set up, you can also get the updates of any of the people you are following by cell phone. Some businesses and services are already using Twitter to keep their customers and clients informed. Washington DC’s metrorail, for instance, has each of it’s lines set up on Twitter. Follow them and switch the device update button to ‘on’ and you will get all notices of outages or delays by text message on your cell.

Next step: Find people to follow. This, unfortunately, is not as easy as it might be: the ‘Find People’ link at the top of the page which would be the obvious first step is all but useless. Instead use the much more powerful ‘search’ link which is at the bottom of the page. Search for topics that interest you and you’ll find all sorts of conversations going on. Another good way to find people: use Twellow.com. This is a sort of Twitter yellow pages and searches people’s profiles, as well as their conversations and is a very good way to find people by profession and location. And one of the best ways to find people to follow is to find someone interesting and then click on ‘following’ in the upper right hand corner to see who they follow. Check them out, look at the webpage listed in the profile, if they have one, and if they seem interesting, follow them too. Very often people will follow you back if you begin to follow them. And check on your own list of followers every once in awhile. It’s generally a good practice to follow back your new followers. But check them out first. I usually follow back unless the person seems to be totally focused on trying to sell me something– whether a product or a belief.

Now here’s where things begin to get a little tricky. You will quickly find, as you begin to follow more than a few people, that it’s almost impossible to follow conversations. My advice is, don’t try. If you see an interesting post and it begins with @something, that means that it is addressed to someone. Click on the name to see the other side of the conversation. If you want to respond to a post, go to the Twitter page of the poster by clicking on their name. Run your mouse over the post and click on the arrow that appears on the side. This will put their name in the reply box and you can post your response. Clicking on the star above the arrow marks that post as a favorite.

Another way to call attention to a post you particularly like or that has useful information is to ‘retweet’ it. Copy the text of the post, hit the reply arrow and paste the text in next to it. Add ‘RT’ for ‘retweet’ in front of the name and post. That way all of the people who follow you, but don’t follow the original poster, will also see the post. Retweeting is one reason information travels so quickly through Twitter. If you are following a lot of people the posts will run by so quickly that it’s easy to miss a response to something you have said. You can easily check for responses by clicking on the @Replies button to the right. Just under @Replies is the Direct Messages button. These are messages which no one but you can see. They will not appear on either your or the senders Twitter page. You will probably find that you get a number of these messages thanking you for following. This is because some of the Twitterers with the largest followings have their accounts set up to send out automatic direct messages to followers. You should check both your @Replies and Direct Messages frequently so you don’t miss any messages directed to you, whether publicly or privately.

One way to hold a conversation with a number of parties on a particular subject is to use the hashtag (#). People organizing conferences or events will frequently announce a hashtag code– for instance, #ideaparty, or #gov20. You can read everything posted in connection with this event by going to search and typing in the code. You can respond yourself by writing your post and adding in the hastag code. You can also follow the conversationby going to tweetchat or by installing tweetdeck. Instructions for using tweetchat are here.

So, that’s about it. I recommend giving Twitter a try. When you do, look me up. You’ll find me here: @Eclectopedic.

I have been looking at artists’ pages on the internet lately and wondering: Can the internet rescue art? Does art even need rescuing? Well, according to my artist friend Olga Grulichová it does. She says that cheap knock-offs from China and other low-cost locations are killing Czech art — especially high end art glass and porcelain which is energy-intensive and expensive to produce. She has had to give up plans for some porcelain pieces she designed because the porcelain manufactury she was using closed. Glass artist friends have been hard hit by closures of commercial glass furnaces. And she is nervous even discussing some of her designs, much less advertising them on the internet after some bad experiences with the theft of her ideas: one of her signature designs– quirky ceramic house facades based on the centuries old houses in Prague’s Malá Strana were quickly copied and mass produced for sale in all the tourist shops in town. These, I point out to her, are not really comparable to hers, which are much larger pieces, each with individual touches often specially designed for the future owner- down quilts airing in the windows, lace curtains, people standing in the doorways, symbols and names over the doors…

I tell her– and I believe– that these cheap imitations are no competition for her. That people who care about art will want her originals and not cheap copies. She has had considerable success as an artist, I point out, with exhibitions in Paris and large purchases by such companies as Movenpick. But even as I reassure and encourage, I realize that I don’t really know. It is all part, I think, of the larger question of how we will compensate original work of all kinds now that many of the old forms and norms are dying. Will artists be able to make a living in this new world? Will writers? Who will support them and how? Will micropayment companies such as Kachingle provide a new model? Or will we return to old ones like the 16th and 17th century patrons of the arts?

I am rooting, myself, for some combination of the new and the old: for people to begin once again to define themselves and achieve respect at least in part by developing their individual taste– and to do that through the new tools of the internet and social networks. I can imagine a world in which the same broad swathe of the middle class owns art and supports writers as used, in Victorian times, to have servants. I can see young people developing a sense of who they are by searching the world for one or two special artists whose work calls to them in a unique way– and then spreading the word about them among their friends and contacts.

This seems to me an attractive vision. I hope, for the sake of artists like Olga, that it one day becomes reality.

Photos by Sarah Shaw Tatoun, ceramics by Olga Grulichová

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When John Dickson first met Rachel Shaw they were both living in small apartments and she was trying to satisfy her gardening bug with volunteer work and Master Gardening classes. Looking for ways to support his soon-to-be-wife’s passion, John turned his inventive mind to the problem of growing indoors, and later, when they had moved into a larger place and Rachel had signed up for a community garden plot, to growing seeds.

He soon discovered a major problem in the design of seed-starting equipment: If the light was placed too high the seedlings grew quickly into tall, spindly plants, straining to reach the light. If it was placed too low, on the other hand, there was no room for them to grow. The solution equipment designers had come up with struck John as absurd: to place the light at an angle to accommodate the seedlings of different height. Instead, he came up with an innovative design of his own: seeds are placed in trays on shelves that can be moved up and down on a rack. He has a patent pending on the design, but all the parts are standard, everyday items that you can pick up at a Container Store, or build using lights and parts you already have at home. He is offering both kits (with a few tools which make setting up the racks to which the shelves are attached easy) and instructions on how to make your own on his business website, Daylight Design.

Standard Sunstation (TM)

I am not much of a gardener, myself, but I did think having light and growing things indoors in the winter was a great idea– particularly if I could grow things to eat! Since I had a special ‘inside’ on this new business– Rachel is my sister– I began asking for something small, cheap and portable. John added other designs, including one table-top Sunstation (TM), but none of them was really suitable for my tiny room and peripatetic lifestyle. So John went back to the drawing board and came up with another design– this time not requiring shelves or any more space than a little room on a desk or table.

I brought my new ‘mini’ Sunstation (TM) home a couple of weeks ago.

Mini Sunstation (TM)

It includes 4 ‘self-watering’ pots (another one of John’s inventions so you don’t have to worry about over or under-watering), humidity cups to protect the seeds before they sprout and a standard shop lamp.

Here they are today, with 3 healthy looking young lettuce plants and one laggard sprout.

Baby lettuce on mini Sunstation TM

Lettuce almost ready to harvest.

And here it is today, about three weeks later, almost ready to eat!

I am still not interested in gardening, but I must admit, it is fascinating watching the seedlings sprout and grow as I sit here at my desk in front of my computer. And I am looking forward to some great salads!

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I was sitting in my room one day when a fellow-teacher who had rented a room in the same place called me. “Sarah! Come quick and bring your camera! You have to see this!”

I ran downstairs and watched open-mouthed as an amazing collection of costumed characters collected in the alley way that lead to our front door. There was face-paint and feathers. And there was a big devil’s head with a long tail. A fire was kindled the dancers assembled, and the ceremony began. We both watched breathless, snapping pictures as the big, grinning head bobbed, swooped and rolled. Afterwards we looked at each other, amazed at the privilege of having such a visual treat right outside our door.

I don’t know how much later it was that we learned the reason for this visit: among traditional people, foreigners were considered to be evil spirits, bearing bad luck. It seems that our landlord was a traditional man– or maybe he was just taking no chances. Since a number of us evil spirits were living on his property he had paid for a traditional cleansing ceremony to ward off the bad luck we were bringing him.

While a little dismayed at this view of ourselves from another perspective, we nevertheless felt, and I think, still feel, that it was a wonderful thing to see.

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The answer, of course, was “Good day.” It almost always is. In fact, even in America the custom survives with, “Good morning,” and sometimes even “Good afternoon,” or “Good Evening”. And of course we still wish people “Good night.” But for some reason we have lost “Good day.” I wonder if people realize just how much of a loss this really is? It strips us of the ability to wish strangers well without prying into their private life. It renders that most basic of social glues, the inquiry that invites the sharing of feelings and experiences, an empty formulaic phrase, requiring an equally empty response: “Fine, thanks.”

Anyone who has ever suffered loss or severe illness knows that it can be a wrenching response to make. Our European friends are right: it is rude to make such an inquiry and then obviously not listen to the response– and to evoke such an automatic response in someone who has just lost a mother– or worse yet, a child– is downright cruel. Of course thoughtful, kind people will find ways of dealing with the dissonance– perhaps by making a point of actually listening– but this, too, involves an unnecessary burden: who really has the time or emotional energy to deal with the feelings and experiences of every single person they see in the course of a day?

Perhaps the problem does not seem big enough to some to waste time on, but when the answer is so simple, why suffer even a minor problem? Bring back “Good day”! If that’s too formal for our simple American tastes, we can borrow “G’day” from the Aussies.

However you say it, I wish you all a very good one. I won’t ask you how you are.

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Beaded Bracelet

When I first started learning Czech back in about 1982, I had an odd dream one night in which Native American tribes had created a technologically advanced society operating entirely underground. They had tunnels deep in the earth connecting all countries and continents together.  I went down into the tunnels and found that they all spoke Czech– their preferred language!

I don’t know if this is true for others as well, but often when I make an odd connection in a dream it remains with me– the feeling of it, the sense of it being real– from then on. So ever since I have felt there to be, in some deep sense, a connection between Native Americans and Czechs.

Once I moved to the country in 1990 I discovered that there were several ways in which this was actually true. Many Czechs, beginning with Vojta Naprstek in the 1800′s, had felt the same odd connection I had made in my dream. Naprstek had brought back many artifacts and pieces of Indian art from his long sojourn in America, and members of later generations studied tribal languages, spent long periods among them and sometimes become members of tribes. And when I arrived after the Revolution, all over the country there were small ‘bands’ of ‘white Indians’ who studied everything they could of Indian art and lore and replicated it as much as possible.

As I later discovered, however, the connection had actually begun long before the 19th century– and had gone in the opposite direction. It began with the first contacts between the new and old worlds. Bohemian glass beads, I learned were among the first traded items — were, in fact, the legendary ‘trade beads’ used in place of money in many transactions. The Czech bead making industry had become well established in the 16th century, and by the time trade was established in North America it had become world renowned. Native Americans were quick to recognize their beauty and quality and soon adopted them for use in decoration in place of traditional quill work. I first became aware of this when a friend arranged a glass bead factory tour for young Blackfoot Indian who was visiting Prague. “Grandfather would think he’d died and gone to heaven,” he said, inspecting the plastic bags he had been given, bulging with beads of all colors sizes and shapes.

Wearing our Gifts

I was reminded of this– and the exceptional quality of Czech beads– when my friend Paula visited me in Prague last fall. An avid beader and jewelry-maker she had surprised us all at our annual ‘scanner’ reunion with stunning bracelets in which the beads and colors were carefully chosen to match the inner self, which she had managed to ‘catch’ with eerie accuracy.

Naturally the first thing she did when she visited me was to find– with what inner sonar I don’t know– one of the best bead shops in town.  She set to work as soon as she was home and by the time I was ready to return to the States she was already sending me an express request for more which I was able to bring back and Fedex to her in time for Christmas.

Paula's Bohemian Bead Earrings

Sadly, some of these beautiful and unusual designs are being lost now, as the Czech glass industry goes through a major crisis that is shuttering some factories with traditions stretching back four centuries. Czech glass, it is claimed, is being undercut by Chinese manufacturers who are creating cheap knockoffs of Czech designs. This, I believe, is a bogus argument being put forth by those who do not understand the value and importance of the country’s’ crown jewels’, whose reputation and base of knowledge and skill has been created by many generations of artists and craftsmen. Hopefully Czechs will come together as they have often done in the past and find a way to rescue the now struggling glass and porcelain industries, in particular, and perhaps, in the process, come to a greater appreciation for their national heritage in general.

In the meantime, the next time you come across glass beads for sale, I hope you will think, as I do, of Czechs, Native Americans — and the fact that we all connect in unexpected ways.

- The Wanderer

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Finding Your Own Path

Free:

Download Barbara Sher’s wonderful first book, Wishcraft at wishcraft.com. Filled with useful tools, like the backward planning flow chart, and exercises like ‘style search’ and the ‘ideal day’ to help you find and develop your best assets.

Amazon links: (Buying through these links gives me a small percentage of your purchase price. The cost to you is the same as if you bought it directly from the Amazon.)

Wishcraft in book form: Wishcraft: How to Get What You Really Want

Barbara Sher’s most recent book, aimed at people with multiple interests: Refuse to Choose!: Use All of Your Interests, Passions, and Hobbies to Create the Life and Career of Your Dreams

And here are some other books by Barbara Sher.

Getting Organized

Here’s the book I’ve used with the most success:

I also recommend David Allen’s books.

Some Free Resources for Doing Business Online

I’ve been reading Shel Horowitz’s newsletters on frugal fun and frugal marketing for years. He switched to blog format recently, so now you can get the same information without signing up.

Paul Myers couldn’t be different from Shel Horowitz in style, but they share a deep commitment to business integrity. Myers is the man to go to for practical, nuts and bolts information.

The Warrior Forum is a great online forum for internet marketers. Sometimes the hype gets a little thick, but lots of useful information and helpful people.

Marketing Sherpa has quite a lot of free resources, although much of its content is now available only to members.

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Here are my Ten Reasons People Procrastinate.

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